pinkpussycat

Hello

I just wondered if anyone else has found this? I’m about 2 weeks into my healthy regime and although I feel fitter I haven’t lost any pounds yet

 Does anyone else find it takes a while for it to kick in? I think (if I remember right) that when I lost weight before it seemed to take ages for anything to happen.

 But I definitely feel I dn’t know, more healthy and got more energy.

Hello all, Happy Friday!

I’ve had my wii fit about a week and yesterday did quite a lot on the muscle and yoga workouts. Jeez today I ache so badly! But I guess no pain no gain

 I keep a diary of my measurements and I measured mnyself today and since the last time in June, I have lost about an inch off my waist and my belly!!

I’m just thinking about all the nice clothes I’ve got tucked away in the wardrobe that are too small ah…I think my goal is to feel happy with my figure by Christmas. It’s only 5 months away so I will probably only get down to a UK 16/18 but if I’m more toned and slimmer than I am now I’ll be very happy!! That’s my incentive.

This is just my 2nd day on the site and I’m so glad I joined. I’m amazed at how lovely and caring the members are and how it makes a HUGE difference to know you aren’t alone, everyone else feels the same and they WONT judge you.

 It has made me feel a lot more positive, I have been contemplating some things this morning.

It’s almost like the media or people that ciritise try to make us feel guilty for being overweight. But Ok, I’m overweight but I’m not an addict or a criminal, I don’t lie or steal. I’m a good wife, and look after my pets and will help anyone in need so if being fat is my greatest crime, sooorry!

 And I do feel self concious that I am obese and people can’t help but notice it but I do look ‘normal’. There are poor people that have terrible disfigurements, disabilites or have suffered horrendous burns. When you consider what those people have to endure and are things that can never be changed, it does make me feel lucky to be just fat. It’s not like anyone points and stares at me or recoils in horror.  

I felt good this morning, my wii fit arrived and I had a go on it. It’s very fun. I was shocked that my weight is 18.8 stones with a BMI of 40.8 but I know that this piece of equiptment will really help me do exercise. My hubby called on his lunch break and told me that he thinks I’m perfect etc. He also had a present for me which I unwrapped - it was the new Sweeny Tood dvd (I love Johnny Depp!). My hubby is such a sweetie and so supportive.

 However then my mother came to see the wii fit and mde a joke about the tape measure lying on my bed ‘not being long enough’. Then she said ‘I don’t think you realise how big you look visibly’. Great, this made me feel terrific!!

 I instantly felt that heavy feeling in my heart and the embarassment and humilation that I always feel when she makes a comment about my weight. I planned to walk the dog just then, but that made me feel so self concious - everyone will be looking at me thinking how horribly fat I look.

I feel anger also that she thinks she has the right to say something so hurtful. A few weeks ago she was giving me a lecture and said ‘It breaks my heart to see you looking as you do, you look like some married woman that’s let herself go!’ . This hurt unbelievably because OK I may be fat, but I’m 22 and always wear makeup, fake tan, do my hair etc. I lost a lot of weight for my wedding in 2004, but put it back on and she’s constantly reminding me of how fat I’ve become since then.

 And the stupid thing is, she thinks she’s ‘helping’ to make me lose weight by shaming me, but it does the opposite. If I’m left to my own devices I feel positive and look at losing weight with a sensible and happy outlook. But when she makes me feel depressed and humiliated for being fat, it makes me down and feel lethargic like I can’t be bothered to exercise. And either comfort food or want to crash diet.

 EDIT: Thank you so much for your comments, it means a lot to me. I do feel annoyed also that my weight is the only important thing it seems, I wish she focused on the things I have achieved and done well with rather than my appearance

 EDIT 2: Thank you so much everyone for all your comments, they really have helped and I feel much more positive now. Just come back from a 40 min walk which helped I really appreciate your kind words and support, they hav e definitely made a difference.

I bought some lean beef mince so I’m gonna make some healthy home made burgers for dinner. Hope everyone has a lovely evening xxx